'Ello all. Here goes nothing

First off, pardon any bad grammar/punctuation. I'm not exactly the best writer. If it hurts your eyes? Stop reading and piss-off(I mean this as kindly and gently as possible)

Alright, I am doing this because occasionally I feel the need to rant and the ability to just come here will be ever so helpful. Plus, hey why not.

This one will be fairly short, as I'm simply posting to get it out of the way for my first one.

I am an RPer, a Gamer, all around a nerd/geek/whatever you call them. I play a lot of video games and sometimes their plots lines just PISS ME OFF. Like, for example, Modern Warfare 2, the plot is pretty damn ridiculous. (SPOILER ALERT)


You break an old captive British officer out of some jail, which has a huge damn armory and a small army in it by the way. And later on that guy launches a nuke into the American heartland where we're under attack by the Russians because some warmongering crazy guy shot up a Russian airport while speaking in English. THEN the secret agent you're playing as in that airport level gets shot at the end and therefor leaves behind some wonderful evidence that 'The Americans did it' for the Russians. So the Russians manage to INVADE America, right in too. Almost no warning. Yeah, 'cus we're that god damn stupid,'It's an exercise' BULLSHIT. God damn stupid. Anyways off of that one.

I love Warhammer 40,000, mostly the Imperial Guard. Sometimes, if it weren't for the fact I would be constantly worrying about some horrific monstrosity kill me, I wish I lived in the 41st millenia. A lot of stuff kicks ass in that time apparently. I mean do you know how awesome it would be to have a Space Marine Terminator as a bodyguard? Let alone a few thousand Veteran ones with super awesome gear. Aaaand off of that topic because if you don't know 40k you don't care and if you do know it then you already know they're awesome.

But my original point for posting, I have discovered I have a deep inside with lotsa emotions in it. Yes, I have emotions. Awesome, huh? Or would that be NOT awesome? Whatever. Anyways deep beneath(re:not that deep if you know me actually) the 'crazy guy' I pretend to be a lot of the time is actually a rather 'normal' person. By normal I mean I react like someone should to sad things, by crying. Whenever I write a story, mostly chicken scratch in my notebook that I dare not repost from terrible grammar and laziness, I tend to have all my heroes be womanisers and yet secretly deeply care and never wish to see any woman hurt. Generally speaking though, I do try to make some terrible thing in their past to give an excuse for being contradictory. And yet, all of my characters end up falling deeply in love with a woman who is overbearing, mild anger issues, but cares deeply for her fellow man(as in mankind). Tell me yet, am I odd? Deal with it, 'tis who I am after all. I really have a strange habit of playing crazy people when I do RPs and if they're not crazy they're megalomaniacs. If they're neither of those then they're me, usually with a gun.

Okay I got side-tracked again. Anyways, I may act like a perverted crazy, nut-job, but I really have the greatest respect(re: god fear-respect made by fear) for the 'fairer' gender(after all not all of them are hot. just the truth here) And although that seems fairly contradictory it's just an external shell I've grown to hide behind really. Like a hermit crab I suppose you can say. A tough shell of cynicism, sarcasm, perversion, and acting a little crazy all hide a soft interior of deep caring. However, the shell is only hard against people. Books and movies can smash right through that shell like a hammer and a piece of rice paper.

Aaaaand, I do believe that's all for tonight. So, if you're reading this. Tell me how I did actually. And tell me if you believe the crap about emotions! Cus it is true.